Why am I a believer? Why do I have to explain it to you? Was it entirely my choice? Can anything ever be?
Is it truly so alien to you that I want to believe in x? Is it really so offensive to realize that I don’t feel ashamed, that I laugh at the lengths the modern world goes to hide the shackles, the serfdom, the inevitability, the necessity, of God?
It may not sound pretty to you, but I didn’t make this movement of mine to appease the weak-willed and child-minded. Going to church and going atheist was easy; becoming a Christian was fucking HARD.
The absolute movement of the unknown is not an easy one. It is what separates the mighty from the low. It is what separates belief from identity. It is as God intended that the movement is fucking miserable.
But still you ask, and you will repeat these questions. Because it doesn’t make sense.
Yes, others inspired me along this path. No, I likely wouldn’t have made it this far without their assistance. No, my position is not entirely objective and/or scientifically-backed. No, I don’t care if the lack of objectivity makes a similar movement of faith impossible for you. No, I don’t care if you respect my position less. Yes, I consider you a lesser being than myself for calling your actions rational.
Because rationality means dick. Rationality is the justification of someone else’s position, the philosophical equivalent of cuckoldry. Belief builds up and tears down civilizations; believers destroy and create.
Yes, you are the greater slave for serving everyone instead of One, for choosing equality over quality, man over God.
You wanna know why I came back to the slavery of an idealized death?Because I consider it dishonorable to not sink with the ship I want others to sail in. Because civilization is a ship, and religion its sails.
Slave morality? Perhaps, but I am still waiting to see the egoist or individualist advance something that isn’t but bowdlerizations of the act of masturbation.
“Christianity is not for authoritarians.”
LOL, a supreme being is not an authority. You criticize atheistic christians for not being more logical hedonists. You do not criticize belief.
People nowadays want to tell me belief in God is about happiness for all, some magical earthly utopia with a side of waffle fries? Everyone in the Church, everyone worshiping God in their own unique and special way, no one going to Hell, atheists saved at death, Baptism of desire?
Fuck you, why did He create the HEAVENS and the Earth in the first place? Fuck you, why was Jesus even necessary? Fuck you, how in the world can you use the Bible, a book that catalogs man’s cruelty and struggle through antiquity, to justify being a sissy, smiling, masochistic faggot today?
Because Jesus? Eat shit, He was working towards tearing down the foundation of the Roman Empire from His first sermon.
The New Testament is *the* revolutionary manifesto, and you make it into a fucking dildo.
Once upon a time, belief was something you killed another man over. Nowadays, jimmies are rustled when you dare insinuate that you harbor anything not thoroughly-disassembled by rationality. Like, seriously? Have your testes receded that far into your belly?
Without authority, there is no belief. Shitty people cannot into belief on their own. They just ape what looks cool or what some Jew sells them on credit.
Man has come to his lowly state precisely because he has abandoned explicit belief in his God. You have to have a prime directive, you have to have an ideal, and no other ideal will do for the Western, White Man. Capitalism has no soul, socialism has no drive, fascism has no empathy, democracy has no brain. There is always yourself, but what good is self-actualization when it comes to civilization’s progress, when you’re eventually worm food like everything else in the material world?